Love or Suadade

I long for him, though I know I shouldn’t 

He hurt me but I feel nostalgic

When I cry because I remember him in the back of my head

I feel stupid right after

Because everyone goes through breakups

So I feel insane, but

If I told someone what he would do to me, they

Would feel bad for me and crying wouldn’t seem so mad

When I told my teacher about it he looked stunned

It looked like was trying to figure out the words to tell me, but

He couldn’t so all he did was stare

Every Time I saw him, he’d just stare, but I would just stare back

Wondering what he was thinking when he looked at me

Was he trying to find the words, or was his mind just blank?

What do you do or say when someone stares?

Do you pretend to not notice or do you just look back like a lunatic?