The pain has finally started to pass,

My life has begun again at last.

My heart is whole and fresh again.

It no more longs for a time when.

A love I felt so long ago.

In my memories I still do know.

And tender emotions are readily lit.

But now with calmness they can sit,

I loved you once and for some time.

I still believed that you were mine,

So many years of you by my side.

You were what made me come alive,

And when you left a hole could be seen.

Where there was once a steady stream,

Of love and anger and joy and pain,

And on my soul it left a stain.

Because everything my life held true,

Was centered around the thought of you,

Never once had I pictured a day.

When you would take your love away.

I guess I took for granted your heart,

Unknowing that you could tear apart.

Where once there beat inside my chest,

A heart of love I can’t detest.

Shattered was my bitter mind,

From all those words you spoke unkind.

I could not accept that you were gone,

And in my life I could not move on.

The grief I felt was so intense,

To me it just did not make sense.

How you could love so much one day,

And then the next just walk away.

I believed that we had worked it out,

Where we stood and what it was all about.

I thought you’d always be my friend,

And that our special love would never end.

But instead you turned your eyes away,

And decided that you’d no longer stay.

Communication was not part of tomorrow,

You cut me off in my pain and sorrow.

Then with your new love at your side,

You began to belittle and deride.

Everything we once had before,

All those things that I’d adore.

You threw them all back in my face,

And treated them with such disgrace.

You said our love was just a waste,

Now these words I can’t erase.

All those years I spent with you,

And all the confusion that I went through.

Was all the love I’d ever known,

And through those years I had grown.

To believe in you and in your truth,

Now I find I was just a foolish youth.

That your love may never have been real,

It seems for you it was no big deal.

To think of this just breaks my heart,

And our memories have been torn apart.

All the respect I’d shown for you,

While you made me out to be a fool.

I guess I should have been prepared,

When hints of the true you were shared.

In little things along the way,

In the things you did and the things you’d say.

Like in that silly little test,

Where your answer did confess.

I was just like a dixie cup you did say,

That you’d crumple up and throw away.

I never gave it a second thought,

And believe it’s truth, I did not.

It’s funny how a stupid test,

Can define the person you are the best.

Now I’m writing and rambling on,

But still I miss you cuz you’re gone.

And your face still haunts me everyday,

But there is nothing left for me to say.

Now the pain has begun to fade,

As I try to forget the love we made.

       

 

  ~Yvonne Renee Moore