Loving You

My tears come flowing out of my eyes like the niagara falls A thunderous river comes flowing down my face As water shoots down the rocks and fall into the river below My tears shoot down my face and begin to stain my yellow blouse Were not together anymore But baby how can you throw away two years of loving me Our two families becoming one All of our memories The vows you would whisper to me at night I can't accept this breakup, so i plead and beg for you to take me back And i didn't mind begging if that meant i could feel your arms around my body another time Or the warmth of your soft lips as they touch mine But i was met with the cold You said you no longer loved me So i cried some more because how was i losing the most important person of my life for over two years Who am i supposed to say good morning to everyday now Who was going to understand me and be my best friend I had you and only you But now You Are Gone Weeks went past and the tears stopped When anger took its place you sat and watched me beg for you as if i was begging for my life There was no mercy in your face or your voice as you left me It was like i meant nothing My grief grew into bitterness at the thought of you I begged for your love that had never learned to be generous, a love that only came in fragments I always knew that I loved you more than you were even capable of loving me You would even admit it to me But i didn’t mind because it meant i got to keep you as long as your love stayed But when someone loves you less they show it I had to beg you to compliment me or to give me your attention It took asking over and over again to get you to text me a few times during the day After all we were doing distance So get lost For having me learn how to accept a lesser fate, for pretending that love was supposed to look like this For not loving me the way a man should love a woman For wasting two years of my life For your reckless care with my heart For making my pillow wet in tears most nights For making me bend down and kneel for you like you're a god just for a spec of attention Making me beg for your love Making me beg for you to take me back when you could have been so clear So kick rocks And thank you for teaching me how love shouldn’t feel And for strengthening me as a women -paetyn