Loving You Is Not A Sin

YOU MIGHT ASK YOURSELF WHY I WRITE THIS IN ALL CAPS

THAT IS THE SOUND OF MY HEART SHOUTING FOR ANSWERS 

TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT "LOVE" IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN... 

 

Version 1

REMIND ME WHY

I WISHED YOU TO BE MINE

ALL THE PAINFUL LOVE YOU GIVE ME

TEARS ME DOWN YET HEALS WITH TIME

 

IS THIS LOVE

AND IF IT IS, 

IS IT WORTH THE PAY?

I CAN'T FIGURE IT OUT

I CRAWL BACK TO YOU EACH DAY

 

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 

WHAT IS THIS KIND OF LOVE?

DON'T YOU THINK IT'S TEARING UP,

 IF IT CONTINUES,

THEN WHAT WILL BECOME OF US?

 

YOU HIDE IN A SHELL

FULL OF MANLINESS AND PRIDE

YOU CLAIM TO LOVE ME,

BUT I CAN'T TELL IF IT'S A LIE

 

I COULD FIND SOMEONE WHO'D NEVER MAKE ME CRY,

BUT COULD THAT PERSON FILL THE EMPTINESS

ONLY YOUR LOVE CAN BRING TO LIFE?

I COULD LEAVE YOU AND THE PAIN I FEEL INSIDE,

BUT THE MEMORIES MY HEART KEEPS

WILL FOREVER TRAP MY MIND

 

WHEN I NEEDED YOU THE MOST

YOU WAITED PATIENTLY BY MY SIDE

WE WERE CLOSE FRIENDS FOR MANY YEARS

THEN ONE DAY WE PUSHED THE 'FRIENDS' WORD BY

 

AND THAT SPARK EXPLODED LIKE A NUCLEAR BOMB,

RAVISHING EVERYTHING IN ITS WAY

IT WAS ALL SIMPLY GONE

WE WERE LEFT STANDING

IN THE OPEN LIGHT,

OF THE SUNSHINE'S WARMING RAYS

 

WE'VE HAD OUR BUMPY ROAD 

FULL OF FIGHTS AND FULL OF HEARTACHES

BUT ONE THING I CAN SAY

I KNOW LOVE IS SUPPOSED TO FEEL THIS WAY

 

NEVER HAVE YOU STRICKEN ME 

NEVER HAVE YOU THREATENED TO LEAVE

ALL THOSE THINGS YOU NEVER DID,

SHOW HOW YOU REALLY CARE FOR ME

 

THIS IS LOVE

THIS, WHAT I TRULY SEE

MY REASON TO WAKE EVERY MORNING

KNOWING YOU'LL BE NEXT TO ME 

 

AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

PROVEN TO THE WORLD

TRYING HARDER SO THEIR LOVE

GLISTENS STRONGER THAN BEFORE

 

IT MIGHT BE HARD TO BELIEVE

BUT I KNOW WHAT WE ARE

WE ARE THE TALE OF ROMEO AND JULIET

WHERE TRUE LOVE CONQUERS IT ALL

 

YOU MIGHT ASK YOURSELF WHY I WRITE THIS IN ALL CAPS

THAT IS THE SOUND OF MY HEART AND MIND FIGHTING

 EXPLAINING WHAT "LOVE" SHOULD MEAN TO ME...

 

Version 2

REMIND ME WHY I BEGGED MY HEART

TO FILL ITS SOLES,

AND LET YOU CRAWL DEEP INSIDE

PLEASE TELL ME WHY MY HEARTBEAT STOPS

EVERY TIME YOU AVOID LOOKING ME IN THE EYES

 

YOU TEAR ME DOWN, YET I HEAL WITH TIME

BUT I CRAWL BACK DUMBFOUNDED 

BECAUSE SOME WAY, SOME HOW

YOU'VE MANAGED TO CONTROL MY MIND

 

"YOU ARE NON COMPOS MENTIS", 

WHISPERS MY HEART TO MY HEAD,

"INCAPABLE OF THINKING, NO DESIRE, NO AFFECTION,

TELL ME REALLY, IS IT WORTH THE PAY?

IT'S NOT HARD TO SEE, WHAT YOU CALL 'LOVE' 

IS YOUR MAIN SOURCE OF DISMAY"

 

"WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE YOU HAVE TO SAY,

YOU HAVEN'T MANAGED TO STOP MY FEELINGS

ALL YOU DO IS CLOUD MY BRAIN"

 

"YOU, HEART, ARE DECEIVING, MANIPULATING OUR LOVE

FROM YOUR LIES I MUST REFRAIN, BUT...

IF YOU DIMINISH INTO BITS OF RUST,

THEN TELL ME, WHAT WILL BECOME OF US?" 

 

I COULD FIND SOMEONE WHO'D NEVER MAKE ME CRY,

BUT COULD THAT PERSON FILL THE EMPTINESS

ONLY HER LOVE CAN BRING TO LIFE?

I COULD LEAVE HER AND THE PAIN THAT BURNS MY INSIDES,

BUT THE MEMORIES MY HEART KEEPS

WILL FOREVER TRAP MY MIND

 

YES, I CLAIM TO LOVE HER BUT I NEVER TELL HER WHY

SHE WAITS FOR ANSWERS, THINKING ABOUT IT DAY AND NIGHT

AS THOSE ANSWERS NEVER COME, I FEEL HER LOVE BEGIN TO FADE,

I CAN HEAR HER HEART SHOUTING ACROSS TO MINE

BECAUSE WITH FAITH IN OUR LOVE, SHE WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY 

 

"HEART, IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED, TO RUIN US ALL ALONG?

I CAN'T LEAVE HER LIKE THIS, IT IS TIME I MAKE A CHANGE

YOU'VE HELPED BUT MOST TIMES YOU PROVE TO BE AN ISSUE,

WITH A FOCUSED MIND, IT'S TIME YOU GET OUT OF OUR WAY"

 

WE ARE NOT PERFECT BUT THAT'S OKAY,

THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT US,

I FEEL PLEASURE FROM OUR FIGHTS, THEY BRING ME JOVIAL PAIN

THE ONES WE SHARE FROM TIME TO TIME

DISAGREEING ON ONE THING, THEN WE'RE YELLING AT EACH OTHER 

EVERY TIME I'M MORE IN LOVE

BECAUSE IT'S NOT WITH A STRANGER, IT'S TO ONE ANOTHER

 

AND THE SPARK WE SHARE EXPLODES LIKE A NUCLEAR BOMB,

BLINDING THE DARKNESS THAT CROSSES ITS WAY,

IT FEELS AS IF WE'RE STANDING IN THE OPEN LIGHT,

OF THE SUNSHINE'S TOUCH WITH ITS WARMING RAYS

 

WE'VE HAD OUR BUMPY ROAD, FULL OF FIGHTS, FULL OF HEARTACHES 

BUT ONE THING I CAN SAY, I THINK IT'S HOW LOVE IS MEANT TO BE

THIS IS LOVE, WHAT I'VE COME TO FEEL AND TRULY MORE

MY REASON TO WAKE EVERY MORNING WITH YOU LYING NEXT TO ME

AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, WE HAVE PROVEN TO THE WORLD

TRYING HARDER SO THIS LOVE, GLISTENS STRONGER THAN BEFORE

 

IT MIGHT BE HARD TO BELIEVE, BUT I KNOW WHAT WE ARE

WE ARE THE DEVASTATING TALE OF ROMEO AND JULIET 

EVEN AFTER THEY DIED, SIDE BY SIDE

THEIR TRUE LOVE STILL CONQUERED IT ALL

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