To Mama

I wonder how different I’d be if you were around longer

Maybe I’d be perfectly bilingual like the rest of my family

Maybe I’d be a better me 

Maybe I’d get out the house more 

Or 

Maybe I’d be more in touch with my culture

But I know one thing for sure

I wouldn’t reminisce on the times we could’ve had

Cause you’d be here 

I’d hear you tell me 

“Shut up stupid!”

The room would fill with laughter

And after you could teach me Spanish 

Cause I only know the curse words

On your birthday we could sing for you

“Hey Mama I wanna scream so loud for you

Cause I’m so proud of you” 

These are the things I want to do

But the only time I see you is when I visit the cemetery 

Thinkin’ back on how legendary and out of the ordinary you were

Tears fill my eyes until my vision starts to blur 

I’m sorry I wasn’t there

I’m sorry we ain’t get more time together 

Sometimes I wish that we would live forever 

I wish that I would never

Have to let you go

But I want to let you know 

Every step I take, every move I make

Every single day, every time I pray

I'll be missin' you