Masks

No one can see me,

No, not who I truly am

They all see different projections of me,

Different masks that I hide behind

The versions of me that they want to see

Honors student, well trained daughter,

College bound, funny friend,

Always good for a laugh

I have stories for every scar

That marks my body

Something believable

I see them look, they notice them

But they never ask, they don't want to know

They don't want to believe that I

Am not who they want me to be

So I give them what they want

A smile when neccessary,

A story to make them laugh

While inside I am screaming, silently,

At the top of my lungs

Wanting someone to notice,

To show that they care

But no one asks

I drift through life silently,

Nothing but a shadow hiding behind

An elaborate mask

Asking myself why I don't just end it all

Because nobody would notice anyway

But I know that it is just a lie,

That someone cares

And that thought gives me enough hope

To make it through another day

Waiting and watching,

For someone who understands