Maybe

All I need

They tell me

This, and this, and that

Dreaming is good, they say

Until it isn't

Then what?

Wanting, wanting, wanting

Change, a hope, a prayer

Don't plan too far

Don't try so hard

You might be dissapointed

It's okay to want things

But it needs to be our things

And if it's not

It's probably wrong

So maybe it is

Or maybe just wrong for me

Maybe I don't need what I want

And maybe I don't know what I need

Maybe I want something

Which isn't mine to take

But maybe I have something

That's much too strong to break

Maybe I should let it go

Maybe I should do the thing

That thing that makes everyone happy

Everyone except me, maybe

But that's okay

Because no one's upset with me

And no one is disapointed in me

Except me, maybe

But that's okay

What I do isn't important

So much as why I do it

Is it for them, for him, for her?

And this, and this, and that?

Is it really winning

If everyone wins but me?

Is that the selfish part talking

Or the part that wants to be free?

All I need

I realize

Not what I thought it would be

Not staying, or going

Not wanting, not knowing

But to finally have faith in me.