Maybe they'd understand

Maybe they'd understand if they'd read what i read

Maybe they'd understand if they heard what i heard

Maybe js maybe they'd understand if they heard what i've been called for no reason

Maybe theyd understand the pain i bear if they looked inside my heart

Maybe theyd understand their daughter thats now gone if they looked inside my head

Maybe theyd see where they lost me if they looked at their own actions

Maybe if they would help me instead of getting mad at me

Maybe if theyd understand and look

Instead of yelling at me for not doing school

Maybe if they looked inside theyd understand or care

Sometimes it feels like im js a burden 

Maybe just maybe theyd understand if they looked harder

Maybe theyd see the scars if they cared

Maybe instead of teasing me so i could be “prepared” for the world and looked at what a monster ive becomes

The lines in my body the only thing that makes me feel good again 

The one thing that wont leave if i dont want it to

People have lost my trust so much i only trust the blade in my hand again

I wish i could get better

But noone understands

Noone cares to actually ask and they mean it

Nobody cares because im a nobody

Or maybe im js a pretty face

Or a pretty body

The only thing they want or need isnt me 

Its this monster im captured in

The thing i cant get out of 

So i js destroy it until im free

I cant wait till i die

So i dont have to feel this pain anymroe

The bleeding that helps me

The pain that relieves me

The shit that makes me feel alive

The things i need 

noone understands 

And it hurts

Because i thought they loved me