me

Days go by, I feel an empty space inside me. Crying almost every night, stuck in the middle of life and living, depression is always by me so I get sad and lonely it's not my fault. The society puts me down cause in magazines and music videos they're perfect have nothing wrong so I feel as if every bit of me is wrong and ugly. I let society judge me on how I look, the way I dress, the way I do my hair and makeup Instead of feeling beautiful for me. I feel as if nobody cares about the way I feel, or think so I keep all that pain inside. I cannot express it, because in some way it's always just cause of me. Life is beautiful but in my eyes it's cruel and evil. I have so much hate towards me I hate my face, I hate my body, the way I talk, the way I look. My whole life I've been living I lie to myself and say something good will happen but it gets worse. And it's probably still coming. Pain doesn't stop Lies don't end Hate doesn't go away Love is always around But I feel pain all the time, Happiness comes and goes.. Lies are always being told Hate is deep inside. I never felt love, I don't know what it's like to feel love or be in love, I smile to hide my pain. I laugh so I won't cry, I try. then it all comes down to I wasn't happy. I just lied....