me and us

As i'm laying in my bed

Thoughts spinning in my head

No bullets exiting the weapon that is my mouth

Only tears flowing from the faucet that is my eyes

No one to save me from this bind

I'm alone with the noose that is my mind

When i'm alone with my mind my thoughts are in a hurry

When i'm alone with my mind my vision is blurry

When i'm alone with my mind all i see is the noose

The noose that tells me what to believe

The noose that tells me what to say

To think

To hear

To do

TO WANT

I fight the noose every day

I fight to ignore the things it says

I fight to rid of the thoughts it puts in my head

I try to ignore the things it shows me

I try to believe i'm really free

but it never works.

all it does is make me hurt

all it does is make me see

the thing it wants me to see

that all i have to do

to be free

is to put my head inside the noose

and jump

but if i jump

will i be

will i be truly free

or will i be tied down by the wrongs from inside of me

even after i have jumped

will all my thoughts forever be dumped

will i ever be truly free?

NO

never will anyone be truly free. never will anyone be saved from “their sins”. because there is nobody to save you. there is nobody to blame yours and the world's problems on. so no,

we will never be free

not you

nor

me...