Me, Discovered.

When I was about ten years old, I only thought about playdates and school, iCarly and Clarie's, I never thought I would feel so different towards another girl. In my highschool senior year, I made a new friend, She will remain unnamed, For she was my first girl love. When she looked at me, it pierced through my soul, I knew I wasn't my ten year old self anymore. I felt so fragile, frustrated, frigid, everything I did felt manipulated. I knew this feeling was real (and I feel embarrassed to say) but she would never have loved me in the same way. So, with these new adult feelings I discovered, a new adult skill I uncovered: To decide between your feelings or the safekeeping of this wonderful friendship, and so hushed I stayed.