Me as Her

I never been this confused, what if my life will just turn to blue? How will I survive, if I don't know what to do. I cry all my pain, and let it all fade away. So that I won't long, For something that I couldn't have. There will always be that day, I just couldn't feel anything. Am I too broken? or just lost my sense. What if I keep it up? and just feel numb. In that way, I wouldn't be hurt.