Me by Kai

Me by kai

I can’t seem

To feel okay

To be normal

Not today.

My heart

Hurts

My eyes

Burn

Nothing

Kills me more

Than knowing

I will never qualify

I will never

Be the one

You cry to

At 3 am

I will never

Be the one

You care about

In the end

So as I draw

A bloody picture

Across my scarred

And bruised wrist

You’re okay

You’re normal

You’re having fun

You’re human

But I’m

Crying

Dying

Smiling

So please

Ignore me

Use me

Abuse me

It will give me

A reason

To finally

End my pain

End my suffering

My agony

My self-loathing

My bitterness

Have fun

Don’t care

Love others

Live

So that I

Can simply

Disappear

Of the Earth

And you won’t

Wonder where

I had vanished

Or cry when I’m gone

Oh God

Please

Don’t let

Me go!

Save me

I’m sinking

Oh god

Help me!

Oh god

I’m bleeding

And bleeding

And bleeding

It’s already

Too late

For saving

Me