Remember when we met?
Summer before eighth grade
The sun dripped honey and the leaves whispered secrets
You killed the beauty of it all
You kept me in bed
Drained every last bit of energy I had
You had yet to introduce yourself then
An acquaintance I was not quite familiar with,
But one I would never be able to forget.
Remember when we danced with death?
A single cut too deep.
I sat and waited
Thought about the pictures you painted in my head
No more stress
No more disappointment
Remember the tiny voice that made me cry for help?
It saw the future
Finally feeling content
As they bandaged my wrist You growled in anger
Maybe not this time You said,
But next time you will not hesitate.
Remember when I tried to leave you?
It is impossible to feel sad if you have no time to think!
I may have kept busy but you managed to slip through the cracks
In the shower
Like a jungle vine you continued to grow
Tightening your grip on my life
Remember junior year?
Lily Miller straight A all star
Lily Miller straight F burn out
You told me it did not matter
Reminded me I could not do better
You sat in the corner
Watching gleefully as I sat crying on my bedroom floor
Overcome with the realization that I was not me
I was You.
You will remember today.
The day I can finally see the sun
The day I pull you out by your roots
I will now proudly wear the scars you left
Shut my mind when You try to creep in
Remind myself that I am me
I am no longer You.
You no longer have control.
No longer yours,