Meaning

 When asked "what it means.." is very difficult when something feels more

than just words. A meaning is meant by a word, text or action. 

But trying to explain how a healthy relationship means to me is tough 

when theres not enough words to describe how my heart skips a beat when im with

him.

Theres not enough words to describe how big my smile arises when I see his face

I want to explai how the cool fire from inside me turned on when I finally realized

what it felt like to be happy.  I want to describe him as my perfect days, the best bowl of icecream

and my grandmas hugs when I was little.

I was once in an unhealthy relationship full of lies, ungreatfulness, pity, sorrow.

I stayed for the good days but the bad days outnumbed. 

I was brain washed into thinking THIS was love. That I would forever be put on the 

back burner waiting to be noticed, appreciated. everything I did for him ended up 

draining me. 

I will now know what I never want again and i will thank him for teaching me what 

I deserve. Thank you.