Mechanical: Dormancy

Little time has passed and yet I miss you already, I thought it would lighten up my world if I cut you out of it but instead, I've been more than heavy, I can't go back now, though, I've got a point to make, I'm not mature enough to forgive myself for the lame past letters, cards, chocolates, and mistakes. I feel as though I'm missing something or someone I've never had, This is the most honest I've been about this and I'm unsure if that's good or bad, I've lost all sensation in me and all that's left is a shell that's empty, No ability to abuse the senses for survival as the mechanism that used to beat in me is gone. I know you, I know you not, I love you but I forgot, I miss you and because of it, I'll rot in denial because it's the only choice I've got.