Memories

I reminisce and miss ur kiss, I make a wish for past times bliss, A mist or fog of joy, like smoke its here no more. I fear the corners in dark spaces, The borders uncharted and gated, Opened to thoughts once lost, Caught in moments so precious, Of good tidings and blessings, Of hardship refined in companions, Manic as it is recalled I panic, I hate it , I hate it, I hate it, But to hate this, to say it, I would be mistaken, To run from this is to run in circles, To remember the bits is to jump through hurdles, Ones in pain, all the same, time can't change, or hide the shame, Bring back the rain, just so i can feel again. I find myself in the loop of my mind, All knowing that ive seen the signs, But i walk ahead anyway, Learning from the many ways, just to end the day, And be able to say, That I still love you.