Memories under the skin

a shadow flickers at the edges of  my sanity

my thoughts not so clear, a weary head laid to rest

again the onslaught enters my conscious

of things that will never be

though it's so real, feelings wrapped in an embrace

sufficating, rolling, cheating, lieing

yet I can feel it the presence I once knew

so near

yet a far off plain I may never see again

I feel the touch of a velvet caress 

then my heart catches the rest

a stabbing throbbing blistering symphony

of a flicker of light you used to be

tormenting me with every passing second

when is this reality I can touch feel hurt hate and love 

when does a dream become reality 

why did you leave