Mental Battles

The struggle of being an athlete

I can be seen as a star athlete that has everything handed to him on a golden platter

But what goes on, on the inside is much deeper

Feeling the weight of everyone's expectations on my shoulders

Expectations and mental warfare taking over my mind and body like a deadly virus

Looking into the mirror, hating the person that is staring back at me

Working and working until my body is ready to collapse

OCD taking over, not being able  rest without anxiety eating away at me

Voices in my head 

telling myself

Why don't I quit, why don't I just give up, I will never be good enough,you aren't fit enough, you weight too much, your not fast enough

How will I make these thoughts go away

Will I let them consume me like a tsunami Devouring a village

But i try again and again never giving up

I can try to fight these thoughts off by telling myself that I am worth it

Telling myself that I am more than just an athlete