Mental Blessing

I have depression, and it hurts a lot. Sometimes, when I'm sad, I feel like I've been shot. Combined with my anxiety, I feel my nerves become taut. A lot of times I'm so stressed out I sweat though I'm not hot. I also have low self-esteem. I don't like my reflection, the girl who looks back at me. Add impurity to insecurity, And I can't help but get freaked out by every single thing. But nothing adds up to the worst, The curse of having Asperger's, Because even though I may be smart, I even get frustrated by my beautiful art. I'm obsessed with little things, Like details in paintings being off by 1 thing, And out of everything that which I like, Nothing and no one feels the same "like type". But even though I have all these curses, They all add up to 1 big blessing. I may not have known this at all before, But now I see beauty in life, and I'm not stressing.