Mental glow up

In my head i have these thoughts Not regular thoughts about ponys unicorns No not at all No my thoghts just had to be dark The light wouldent shine in I just wished i had normal thoghts Thoughts that wouldent call me crazy Thoughts that are light and fuzzy Thoughts that dosent make me end up in the hospital But i want to get help I prayed and prayed for it to stop I prayed to stop haveing these thoughts so i could be a good girl I think its working Im now on meds to help my emotions from geting to big I think its going to work I read the bible every day and learn something new each morning Im geting better I learn that Jesus is allways with me and that i dont anything extra Im finally able to smile without it being after a bad action I now listen to Christian music which helps me to clear my head I can be happy I can be healthy I can be bubbly I can be me