Mental Physical Trial

I got pain again.

This time it's up my left arm.

Only my left.

My entire left side is getting worse,

and my ribs.

I cut my hair shorter

I wanted a change.

It's getting sad now,

no matter how many times I get online

there is no one I want to talk to.

Even if they are online.

I just feel like its not worth it.

I want to do things but I lack the interest.

I want to talk to people,

but again I don’t want to.

I feel things,

and

I don't want to feel.

I just want me and my music.

I want a hug.

I am not depressed

nor do I want my situation to depress others.

I just...idk what anymore.

Maybe I just need more rest.

That usually helps.

I feel weak

I just want to sleep for a while.

The dreams are getting worse tho

Not bad worse

Just more real

Telling me about what school will be like.

Its so weird.

All I can do is Hope.