Mentally Tough

I started out the year very unhappy. How did I leave it?

Mentally Tough Beyond Belief. 

"Chlöe we shouldn't be friends." 

Said one of the people who I admired most in this world.

Who I wanted nothing more than to be her best friend.

Heartbreak. 

This girl was mean and terrible. But I loved her....

"Chlöe you're grandmother has died."

Said my mother on the phone.

My grandmother was a foe to the family. 

We hadn't spoken in a year and a half. 

Heartbreak.

This women was a terrible tyrant. But a living legend. But I loved her....

"Chlöe my biggest fear is losing you."

Said my boyfriend who I was about to break up with. 

We weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, we were friends. But he didn't know that's all I felt for him.

Heartbreak. 

I wanted nothing more than to stay with him, in a different way. Because I loved him...

"Chlöe I just feel like I can do better than you. If I were to be with you, I would just be settling."

Said the boy who I fell so incredibly hard for right after I moved into college. 

He played the guitar, was deep and mysterious...but didn't want to be with me.

Heartbreak. 

I can't tell you how much I cried about him. Because I wanted to love him...

"Chlöe I applied to live in my sorority house, but didn't get it."

Said my roommate who I thought had my back and like living with me. And she didn't tell me she applied to move out?

She was my best friend and wanted to leave me?

Heartbreak.

I was mad for a day, then just numb. Because I loved her....

How did I leave the year? A person who was afraid of nothing and nobody. If people want to walk out of my life here is my response: 

Drive safe. 

I am grateful for the friends who stayed with me through it all. 

My amazing boyfriend now.

My studies.

My family.

All the people who still love me. 

I don't fear change anymore. Everything is exactly as it should be. I move on from things. Period.

I am a refined person. And I couldn't be happier.