Merit, Reason Lost

Death, without dying. This life riddled wrong. Paralyzed by the pain. Sorrow growing strong. Irony not lost with me; Alive and well. Thriving on such, that created this hell. Powerless to change, any damages created. Consequence unseen. Suffering, never to be abated. Self loathing, forever and again. A thousand times deserved, this pain I drown within. Hindsight, the base in which my torture is set. Being the cause of all your tears. My life's one true regret.