Michelin Man

So, right now, 

I'm trying so hard

Not to love you

Not to fall for you

Not to want something more 

There was something about your eyes

The way there always is 

Perhaps, you thought so too

Because you opened up to me

Shared everything you knew 

Eh, you probably think nothing of it

But to me, it meants the world

to see you so vulnerable 

So emotional 

It made me want to curl, curl

Curl up into a ball

With you at the center

Living, protecting, caressing

Till you felt my sympathy unrelenting

So occasionally, I dream about you

And for a moment I was able to forget

Losing myself in others

Because I didn't want you to be my first time

And yet

Perhaps, I should have waited

Should have been patient like everyone said

But, I've never been one to pause

No matter how thin the ice I tread

God, I miss you and all the inside jokes

But, you'll be leaving soon 

In pursuit of better things 

I only wish we had more time

Or met at a different point

Because if we couldn't have been perfect

We would have been just fine

Living, loving, and laughing with each other in mind

As much as I like you

I wish you nothing but happiness

Even if not with me

I wish you love

If that will end your loneliness

I just wish you could have known how I felt

Maybe things would have been different

Maybe we could have gotten our shot

But, I'll be satisfied with what we got 

I write this now so it won't hurt so much

When you tell me that you're going 

That you're ready

That I'll be staying behind

So, I'm leaving my feelings here

Preemptively,

Because I recognize the signs

But, I'll always think of you fondly

And don't worry 

One day you wont fear the cold

One day you'll understand 

It's not always about feeling warm

It's about being warm

My Little Michelin Man