A Million Shards (Part 1)

Eyes blink open to an empty world,

Reluctant to return to the endless ocean

Of gray colorless mornings

And empty emotions

Door suddenly open,

I blink once, then twice

I forget not the entire world

Is buried in my demise

A world of color, just out of reach

Where weakness doesn’t belong.

A world where needing help is disgraceful 

And constant pain is strong

But the color doesn’t catch my eyes,

There’s a mound of darkness in the hall, 

The shape of a shadow in the light

That floats through my dreams and haunts them all

Again.

The stranger waits before me 

Voice eerily serene

Faceless yet familiar

In this too repetitive scene

Are you okay? Why wouldn’t you be?

You have it all, can’t you see?

No, I’m not.

Flashing anger, like day to night

Transforms right there, before my eyes

Whatever could you possibly mean?

You’re young and bright, you’re just fifteen

Don’t pretend you know what real struggles bring

You’re just a child, you have everything.

Don’t let your weakness come to light

Push your imperfections out of sight.