MindGames

I will miss this place.

I wil miss this feeling.

What I feel when I write is far too appealing

It smells like freedom and tastes like victory

but then I look up and see I am caged in

fenced in

I'm in a beautiful place 

but it's dangerous

because when I'm alone with my thoughts 

I'm engaged in

my own self-consciousness.

I always seek time alone

because I rather fall undone 

by myself and at home

than with someone who has the potential to condemn my soul

I want to meet someone like myself,

with quirks and depth 

in which I can lose myself.

I too want to be asked

what I do in my spare time.

I want someone to wonder what I think about late at night

I too want to matter.

I want to cross someone's mind

but maybe i need to get lost in my own quirks

before someone else can find

them

confide 

is something ill need to master

I need to lower my  guard 

if I want to succeed faster

I intimidate feeble minds

but maybe you're right

and my biggest fear is to become one

for someone

with a mind like mine.