Mindset

I wonder what she was thinking when he was slapping her leaving red that she'd cover up with makeup 

what was going through her mind when he was having a "late night at work" yet smelling perfume on him that he'd say was just another coworker 

the thoughts that raced around as he came home stumbling drunk picking a fight while the children slept 

The bill exceeding not because of anything normal like electric but the hospital bills hiding from anyone possible

his control of her was like a puppetmaster running a show, a conductor leading the orchestra, a runway guy guidig an airplane 

I wonder what got him a more rush, the excessive amount of pills or the alcohol or maybe both with a pinch of other women on the side 

She did nothing but good, afraid of even thinking again about a plan to leave him with the kids, all she wanted was the best yet she stayed a long time 

you are not a good father, you are nothing to me, you are weak and useless, how dare you hit her, you're lucky I was a child when you were around

you are not my father nor a human being, you do not exist or deserve to be on this planet, how dare you not be there for me, not being sober at all 

She deserved far much better than you, you are a piece of trash, low life scum, who layed hands on my mother then begged back for her forgiveness 

you broke her then built her cause you were "all she had"

you are the definition of nothing cause that's what you are to my family and that's how you are as a human being 

I'm glad you are out of my life and that my strong ass mother got rid of you, she is the best and only parent I need and had growing up