the mirrored side (trigger warning)

I feel as if I'm in a lot of pain, yet I feel only a little.

I feel as if I'm crying, yet no tears are coming.

I feel as if I’m alone, yet people surround me.

I feel as if I'm saddened, yet I don't know why.

I feel a great loss, within me.

Yet I have no thoughts, as to why I feel like this.

It might be the war, that is happening.

I feel as if I'm losing my life, yet I’m still here.

I feel as if I’m dying, yet I’m still in this form.

All these thoughts, are not mine.

So I will make a mask, one that can change me.

Into someone who's always happy, so no one will worry.