Misery

What’s happening to you? Are you afraid to fall? Will you be able to stand up again? You know very well you won’t So better not try…. What will happen if I close my eyes again? Closed walls and a door shutting itself How can I close that voice in my head? Telling me that I’m nonsense Telling me that I’m nothing… Do you think they care about you? Will you once get that you’re a burden? Why don’t you stop their misery right now huh? Too selfish to end their suffering A burden, you are just a burden… Why can’t I just laugh? I mean just laugh… Will I continue crying myself to sleep? Why should I continue to endure this misery? Maybe I should consider my options Should totally make some changes… What don’t you see in their eyes? Why can’t you see they can’t handle your package anymore? Even you don’t love yourself, do you expect them to? Come on wake up and finish this misery For both of us and for your troubled family There is the glass of water and your only solution… Will my family forgive me for this betrayal? Who am I kidding will they even cry me? Will they realize I’m not even here anymore? I should totally end this mess of a life And provide them a better life out this misery…