Mistakes.

I’m sorry. You’ll never take me back. And maybe we just aren't meant to be. But I can’t help but think how much you mean to me. I love you so much. And I don’t even know why. I know that tomorrow I’ll probably cry. You’ll say something like you messed up. And baby I know it too. But to be honest, i’d do anything to get back with you. People will be pissed. On my side and yours. But to be honest, i just don't care anymore. I want you. You. You. You. No one else. You. I’m sorry for messing up. I really wish I could change what I did. I need another chance. Even though I don’t deserve it. I should let you go. But I don’t know how. I think the feelings are gone. But they’re really hiding now. Your smile. Your hugs. Your everything. but your lies. and mine too. Baby, I just don’t know what to do. I want to make it work. But will it really be okay. I don’t really know how i feel. I just don’t want you to go away. I know what you’re going to say tomorrow. And i’ll probably be more confused than I was before. But maybe you’re doing that on purpose. Because the truth will kill me more. Maybe you don’t really love me. Maybe you don’t care who i date. Maybe you do want me to leave. Maybe you still loving me. Is nothing but a fantasy. I miss you so much. And what we had. But babe, why did it go bad. It’s my fault. I know i started it too. But baby, can’t you see it wasn't just me hurting you. I just want to start over. But for you that may be too hard. For me, I love you too much to care that you acted like a retard. We both messed up really. Mainly me more than you. But honestly, I think what we had. Was actually. True.