Misunderstood

You say I lie I clearly can't remember Everyone forgets about me in December Friends quickly turn into enemies toward me No one seems to be talking about anything but me In a cruel way nothing but hidden laughs Starring in a cracked mirror frowning at my calves Magazines and tv everywhere it's thrown at me If only they could see what I see I preferred recess resting my head on the field alone Watching the athletes run along flaunting their toned figures Not a single muscle lies on my finger I gaze in awe yet jealous gloom of what could've been Instead of being so focused on being thin