Mix feelings

Did you enjoy my pain?

Was it fun to watch me fall?

You where the reason why I became this way

Everyday, my life is tormented by nightmares, 

Nightmares that are my reality

Do you feel nothing for what you have done?

Have you ever thought how your actions might affect others?

While I trusted you, you plotted my demise

You told me you cared for me, but it was all a lie

I shouldn't have trusted your sweet lies

Was it your plan to destroy my soul?

What was your purpose for making me suffer?

I feel helpless in this dark abyss that you have created

As the years past by, it grows bigger

Being nurtured by my growing sorrow..

NEXT:

Today I look at my life and wonder.

Is life worth all this pain I have been through?

My whole being has been twisted by your selfishness

My understanding of life is so mush different than others..

What they see as torment, I see as pleasure....

I use to wish for my salvation

But now I only wish to feel my own suffering

For I have grown to love the feeling of torment

I love to see the scars on my skin 

And feel the scars on my soul

If only you knew the real me

You would cry and pity me...

But I wish you never to know..

For I still cling to that hope 

Of you becoming the person you once were.