Mixed emotions.

Swiped right, met on tinder,

Eventually,

Got chatting from the off,

Happily.

 

Beautiful eyes and smile,

Expressively,

Interesting background,

Multi-culturally.

 

At mid-stage as well, story to tell,

|Hurtfully,

Creazy ex from the past,

Domestic, abusively.

 

Effected you and your 2 angels too,

Regretably,

Trying to move on from this stage,

Difficulty.

 

Back to the night,

Interestingly,

Conversation getting serious now,

Flirting. 

 

Leaning over the table,

Kissing,

Feeling the horn,

Massively.

 

24 hours later, still talking and holding you,

Closely,

Theres definitely something going on,

Connecting.

 

Few weeks later, 

More meetings,

Comfortable with one another,

Conversation flowing.

 

Alarm bells go off,

Cognitively,

Something don't feel right,

Draining.

 

Both had shit from the past,

Horribly,

Try to see things as they are,

Objectively.

 

No projections from me,

Pointing,

See your insecurities,

Clearly. 

 

Attempt to talk this through, 

Fairly,

Can see I've done nothing wrong,

Clearly.

 

Say goodbye's till next time,

Lovingly,

Get in my car, drive home,

Confusingly. 

 

Feel hurt by your words,

Melancholy,

Things not making sense,

To me.

 

Don't want to feel emotions,

Want understanding,

Laughs and enjoyments, 

Merry.

 

Live for the moment,

Openly,

Don't want to think things over time,

Stupidly.

 

Let things go, let things pass,

Easily,

Comes up again, know what to do,

Another journey. 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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