Momentary Thought #1

  The grinding I caress while accepting on to blameworthiness that accumulated overnight. One minute I got it, and other moments that feeling of dedication has left me with just a grin. I want this moment  to be ever lasting but the more I get distracted ... I do my best to stay above water but I will float in the sea at ease as soon as I forgive myself whole heart in it to awn it. I must break the chain of command and sit in the captain chair because after all I AM.

  I Am who I attended to be, I will not fail. I may fall but on the way down I already prepared myself for the pain that will linger for a couple days but then vanish like  the dreams I experienced during nights of  resting. No  one will no longer steal my joy nor passion. I  will no longer be enslaved  by judgment. I will no longer lose my spirits at the expense of another. This challenge I have almost won. I now know the grass isn't greener on the other side by choice but more so only greener because I watered it and gave it sunlight.