moments like this

that moment i cuddle against him and 

breathe him in.

that moment i wish could stay forever

because of the calm and quiet.

his deep breaths gently lifting my head;

collecting my thoughts of whether or not

i should tell him

everything.

everything

i feel about him.

everything 

i've ranted about with my best friend.

everything

that runs through my head when i see him.

i stay silent as the voice in my head says I'll mess it up.

he won't like me,

want me,

think of me.

the heartbreak I'll feel cannot compare

to anything before.

it'll be a suicide mission,

maybe a great one

(probably not).

maybe sometime I'll be brave

maybe sometime I'll be strong

maybe sometime I'll be smart

but for now, i guess,

everything will be bottled up,

sealed shut

until

i can't take it anymore!

I'll burst saying everything i want to say

hopefully it's not too much...