To The Monster Inside Me

Dear the monster inside me, 

I remeber the day you showed your face to me,

Telling me I was ugly and worthless while destroying the inside of me.

I never knew I wasn't worth much until you said it everyday,

Made me sincerely believe it so I agreed with what you'd say.

Since I was 13 you have been telling me these things,

Started when I was on the playground, just playing on the swings.

Not letting a day go by without you reminding me,

Lost sight of who I was meant to be.

Friends and family starting notcing the long trips to the bathroom after I ate,

Forced me into therapy which I never thought was that great.

I was given the ultimatum, kill you or not go to school,

Ever since then, I haven't stopped fighting, I will overrule.

The days go by and I see you shrinking,

However, I know you will always be apart of me so here's what I'm thinking...

I do what I can to shield you out,

Enough so that I can barely hear you when you shout.

I continue my new life without the fear of you in it,

And I will survive without you making me quit.