More than me

so, I wrote this when everyone was upset and grumpy for like three weeks. I just wrote it, doing whatever, but I reread it just now, and deemed it worthy of verbalizing and posting. also perhaps worthy of scholarship? I don't know, but i might as well try. For the 'Film your voice' scholarship. words: I wish I could make my friends happy I wish I could make them smile I wish I could see them cheerful because I haven't seen that in a while For some reason that I don't know Everyone around me is hurting I want to make it better, I do But it seems I'm not helpful worth anything It stings to know that I can't help Each of their pain is like a million of mine Nothing I do seems to make it stop And inside me I fear I'm running out of time The day will soon arrive when we say our goodbyes We will stretch out and away and not look back We may well make new friends and throw away our past And lose the record, not keeping track I don't want to say farewell I don't want to see them go But I feel we are drifting apart And the drift isn't slow Each of us hurts, With an agony our own The depths of those pains To each other is unknown We're falling our separate ways Like angels once bonded in red Landing harsh against the ground That bond we once knew lying dead I'm scared it'll happen I'm scared we'll separate I'm afraid of the worst It's a terrible fate I want to hold them close And tell them how I feel But I know it'll do no good None of these hurts can heal I'm really truly frightened The day is drawing near I feel it becoming real now Everything I fear I wish you well my friends I'm sorry it's gone this way But I want you to know In my heart you'll always stay It brings me to tears to accept this I've come to see it as a fact As if to deny it Were to break some ancient pact Must we fall apart? Must we wander away? Must our band of comrades slowly drift astray? I really want to cry This pain is just too great Inside me something sounds out It's the sound of a break I could not love one person more than I love my friends And I am so deeply pained by the way I fear this ends Is this really how our story dies? Our group leaving with sad goodbyes? I don't want to even admit it, this fear that i've been holding But the rationale against that is constantly scolding. I'm hurting a lot, just writing this down. Ever deeper falls my hope, ever deeper etched is my frown. Don't let it end this way, I want to scream and shout. But I guess that people changing, is what life is all about. I guess the best hope I can hold on to, is the hope that we remember And that in our past, in our memories, we'll stay friends forever. I feel like i'm watching a horror film, and my friends are the stars I see them walk ahead of me, and spread, wide and far. I love you more than words I love you more than you can see I love you more than life I love you more than me.