..More than a rhyme, Less than a line.

Mon, 09/21/2015 - 19:19 -- fayleaf

I am unstable. I am fine. The dark eyed boy in Physics says I'm a dime. He is audacious to call a quarter a dime. 

My brother drinks his Corona with lime, and when I'm of legal age I think I might follow suit. I am a daughter and little sister in this pursuit. I am not lonely without a dad. I am oh-so-rad... Yeah, that's my motto in the morning.

Speaking of morning, I am in mourning. Why do they say "passed away"? Where is away? I suppose the answer varies depending on your Sunday morning routine. 

There are holes in the seams of my jeans. I don't mind, because they are clean. 

I am clean.

I am Sunshine. That's what my grandma calls me. Every morning was a new day when I was young, but now every morning is a new way to fail, slowly sliding down the ladder rungs.

...

I am still Sunshine.

I am Sunshine

I am a light

I will still shine.

Anxiety heaves, "I am fine, I am fine, I am fine.."

I am more than my perfect GPA. I have slipped from saying "I'm fine," to "I am okay." It feels more genuine, less of a line. 

I am more than an adjective- I am endless verbs. I am writing, I am painting, I am questioning, I am on a search for the most exquisite word. 

My heart lurched out of my chest when I heard the news. He's gone, passed away, and now my childhood memories are faded like these denim jeans, tears and holes in hues of blues. 

I am the teacher in Charlie Brown. No one ever listens to my monologue. 

That's spectacular though, I'm a glitch in the matrix and a cog in the machine. 

I am an idea, a philosophy. Faith is my name, and I am a walking atrocity.

 

(Just ask your English teacher. She'll love every letter, but persuade you to stray away from such a messy compilation of ideas.. "There are more concise ways to say what you need to say, okay? After all, this won't help you on standardized test day.") No, not okay. 

 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
Our world
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