Mother Dearest,

I'm so sorry 

This is not what you wanted 

It's hard and unfair 

You're a good person

You don't deserve this 

I love you and I'm sorry 

But please stop thinking of yourself 

You're not the only one 

What would he want?

Not this

He wouldn't want this 

He would hate it 

You know it, I know it 

Life is cruel

We can't change that 

God is not real

God is used as an excuse for all the problems in the world

God won't fix this,

He can't 

Even if he could, he wouldn't

God is evil and cruel 

God is not a savior 

His son didn't save us,

He damned us 

But what do I know?

I'm too young to make my own choices

Isn't that what you always told me?

You can pray to God and love him

That's fine, that's your choice 

I will never kneel to murderer 

He took everything 

He took my soul,

My heart,

My reason for living 

I can't forgive that 

Love,

Your broken child