A Mother's Love is Unending...isn't it?

When I was younger I imagined you would never meet your grandchildren Forgive my honesty, I just didn't think you had it in you Growing up hearing, "I never wanted kids" sets up quite a disappointing example I expected blantant disregard and disinterest Opinions I would disagree with Hushed conversations with my husband on the way to holidays Instead you are a train coming off the tracks sending debris flying Screams are echoing in my head Oh wait... Those are my screams I am screaming, begging, for anything more then what I have now Christmas is the holiday for family they say Why have you never listened to them? What do you see when you look in the mirror? Are you proud to see such loneliness? I am lonely without you I am half an orphan Only now do I realize it's been that way for years Let your hate spread like wildfire Burning everything it touches Sucking life from the air Until it is you staring at a white ceiling why I don't love YOU anymore