musings

to You--

if You look out onto that manhattan skyline

and You imagined that You

You were God,

gliding

His finger across the buildings, then You

might know how it feels like when i run my hands down my

ribs and spine

and lately, i’ve been feeling happy,

and for once it feels like i fell out of a bad dream,

but i’m not sure how true this is--

don’t blame me. i know i should be relieved but

i’m scared of things that i’m not used to--

just like anyone else

but as i look in the mirror, whoever i see back

She warps

warbling and distorting like dew dripping into

the pearly pool of motor oil

She changes everyday, as fleeting as a

lonely

smile to a high-school acquaintance in a crowded train

Half the time i can’t recognize Her anymore

and maybe, i’ve been thinking

that perhaps i take myself too seriously

-- hell, isn’t that what poets do?

but then i remind myself that i’m a

Girl,

and it would be

abnormal

if a Girl didn’t feel this way.

if i didn’t feel that

the body i lived in was not mine

the house i resided in was estranged

the city forgot me in new year’s snow

the world turned without me turning with it

i would not be a Girl at all.

love,

me, augustina