It's been months without seeing his face,
How he smiled a little too wide,
His teeth sharp with appetite.
It's been months without hearing his voice,
How he spoke a little too quietly,
His lips burning my skin.
How is it that I haven't seen him in months,
But he follows me everyday?
How can I still feel him when he isn't here,
How can I still hear him when no one is talking,
How can someone be there but gone at the same time?
I thought I would be rid of this nightmare,
The fear he will come back and eat me entirely,
Finding more and more until he is completely satisfied.
How do I just forget him when he's what I'm searching for?
The man who hurt me the most,
But I see his face in others.
Across the room, looking down,
He doesn't know I exist,
But I know he does. All because of him.
How can I want someone who reminds me
Of the man who almost killed me?