My Chaos
Location
Chaos.
Inside me is chaos.
I cannot explain in words
the way it feels to be
so completely and totally
consumed
and possessed
and haunted
by the thoughts which swarm in my mind.
Outside I am collected.
Not a trace of the madness that lies within.
I hide behind the front of a sanity
I do not fully understand,
and a happiness I cannot truly feel.
I am a cage for the monster inside,
a parachute for my own lunacy,
which spirals out of control
until confronted by the breaks
of what little sanity I have left.
No one need know of the chaos.
I know not if I am the monster,
or if I am the cage,
but it does not matter.
The filter through which you see me -
the shield between the chaos and you -
that is all you need know.
The rest is just too much.