Off My Chest

*I Just want to clarify that Jada is my little sister. And this was written while listening to "Cleanin' Out My Closet" by Eminem. I also consider rap a more fast paced type of poetry. But, poetry nonetheless.*
 
Here we go
 
Have you ever been lonely or somethin like depressed?
I have, iv'e been sittin' back with a lot on my chest.
 
Silly times, "posi vibes", and music sky high ain't fixin' the feelings that i'm feelin' deep down inside.
 
All these emotions overflowin' it may be somethin' that im goin' through but right now I just feel like that im close to explodin'
 
Not tryna take it out on no one
but it's hell as long as im breathin'.
Im a social butterfly in the morn'
But a no life loner in the evening.
 
Even got a girl that always tryna help me no doubt,
See she can try to but she'll never figure me out.
Look at me now, I guess I.m finally gettin. it out
Off my chest, this is my chance and i'm actually layin' it down.
 
I'm sorry for mama.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to make you cry,
but tonight it's gettin' off my chest now.
One more time
 I said I'm sorry for mama.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to make you cry,
but tonight its gettin' off my chest now.
 
Gold isn't the only thing i got in my chest
and everyone knows that
in there is my heart with feelings and emotions 
all holed up,
but hold up before I expose it,
Let's take a look back at 2013,
Before i ever had a reason to wanna rap with a beat.
 
It was sophomore year somewhere in the winter of months,
My stupid father must have had his panties up in a bunch,
Cause he's back
And i just wanted to put those feelings aside.
So I made up my mind 
I guess this is my final goodbye.
 
I look at Jada i couldnt picture leavin her side even if she hated me im always there for her at anytime and i hope she knows it.
I'm her big brother and theres nothing thicker than blood.
I'm only human but better believe I will fix her mistakes.
 
Haven't done nothin' stupid,
I wasn't raised dumb.
Mama always told me that there was no reason to carry a gun,
And im glad I listened.
So mom when im old, just know...
I'll be the one to get you that dream home
 
I'm sorry for mama.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to make you cry,
but tonight it's gettin' off my chest now.
 One more time.
I said I'm sorry for mama.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to make you cry,
but tonight it's gettin' off my chest now.
 
This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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