My Choice

Confidence broken

Relationships lost

Feelings of regret

Frustration built

Implodes on me

Chilly day in December

Alone

Comfort in the darkness

Door creaks open and I jump

Your dad wants you

i hear her speak

screaming in my brain

i know exactly what this is

leave me alone

I can’t he’s demanding you go

he doesn’t control me

Talk to him yourself

My phone slips into my hand

no

Descending into despair

I call and fumble with phrases

Daughter you have no choice

don’t call me that

It’s my year

no it isn’t

I’m coming to get you Sunday

i refuse

No

The word stifles the air

Hands tremble with fear

Why

i don’t want to

Not a reason

none of your concern

Don’t hide

you wouldn’t let me

…

i am done suffering

get out

Fine. Bye.

Disconnection

sigh

Hours later

Poster ruffles and door opens

He’s not coming

good

I’m proud

what for

You have strength I don’t

…

Walls didn’t fall for you

They do for me

i’m not a child for him to control

I know

leave me alone please

Okay

Footsteps pad away

i look out the window

my reflection stares back

empowered

invigorated

myself