My choices

There this boy I really love but he loves to play games. All the time he tells me he loves me but he never shows it. I know he was cheating on me but I chose to ignore it. People tell me that I have no self worth and judge me because I stay with him. But he is my everything. He takes care of me. We had the best times together. He brings me and my girls out to eat all the time.But he also loves to sell heroin and steal from people. I hate that I am involved but I can't leave him. I know I could get killed if he crossed the wrong person but he tells me that nothing will happen. That him and his boys will have my back. His boys treat me like I’m family and all I ever wanted was a family. They protect me from everything. When I need them they’re always there. You tell me to let him go but who’s going to protect me if I do? I know you won’t because you’re never there when I need you. You never show me love. I feel like I’m invisible around you. But round him I feel important. I feel wanted. So don’t judge me for being with him. When I dont get love anywhere else.