My Curse

The name I go by and known by is Angel which means messenger of God.

But my real name is Angalena which means messenger or angel.

My name is something I don't want because people can't say it,

remember it, or spell it correctly and there's a deep hatred that adds on to it.

My name was chosen by Susuan who didn't want to let my dad have a say in

naming me and I hate her.

My name doesn't have family significance and I would change my name to Allamora if I could.

A name bestowed upon me at birth by someone who doesn't care or love me and my sister.

She has never been there for us leaving the job of a mother to the eldest child a six year old girl.

At least until someone else came along and took over, but by then I didn't know how to be a kid anymore.

People say my name is pretty, but I wonder if they knew the story behind it if they would have a different opinion about my name.

The burning toxin of a memory that in which my name brings.

My name is my ill burdening curse.