My darkest moments

Is there hope-even a little bit? I'm searching around and I can't find it If I was well, and didn't live in hell, Maybe I could come out of my shell But that's not the case, I feel I'm always playing chase Up and down and all around Frequently knocked down to the ground The end is near, this I fear Please don't cry a single tear For I will soon be with God in heaven I've wanted that since I was eleven You've seen me fall so many times I can't even tell you all of my crimes I love you so much but I've had enough I know you'll probably take it rough But try to smile and pray for my best, Because I am finally getting out of this mess!