My Darkness

Completely numb I live day by day. Darkness pollutes the world around me. It sinks in… into my skin, my heart, my soul. Here, in a hole of darkness I don’t know where to turn, Which way I should go, how do I get out? Everywhere I look there is black. I feel as if I am in a dark room with no way out. There is nowhere for me to go. Where can I find my peace, my happiness? Is there any for me to find, some I can call my own? Or is it all being used by others? Stuck between the real world and my world seclusion I am lost. I want to get help. I don’t want to be alone but what am I to do? No one seems to understand. In a live of joy and happiness I just find the sadness, I feel so lost. I don’t know how I have gotten here. Why does my past control my present? I need to fix it but I don’t know how.